Hi Guys,
It turned out to be a different
Sunday afternoon. I decided to use the free time constructively and avoid
spending time on things that are not ‘beneficial’. So rather than sleep and
watch movies all day, I introduced some more important things like praying and
making this entry. Although I still observed my siesta and also did see a movie,
I was less than generous with the time I spend doing them.
Going through some of the
previous entries from my personal journal, my memory was refreshed on some of
my experiences, how far I had come and how far I still need to go. I also
thought sharing some of these entries might be what somebody out there needs by
way of advice, caution or encouragement. So, in this write-up (and maybe a
couple more) I will review an entry from my personal journal and I hope that
someone out there will get something valuable from it. Here we go!
I lost my peace and I lost my strength. I was drained and couldn’t
struggle anymore. I knew I was on a wrong track and could not find my way back.
Everything just went wrong. I couldn’t pray and I felt so alone. So I cried
out. That was the only thing I could do. I told God I needed Him to come and
save me. I searched for him and sought his face. I told him I could not do this
on my own and I desperately needed Him. I told him I wanted to feel His arms
around me and to hear Him speak to me again. He responded to me and told me ‘do
nothing, just react’. Well, I did listen and did what He asked me to do. I took
it one step at a time and held on to patience. Things began to unfold; He began
to loosen me from the entanglements. I got cut in the process and I bled a
little, but He was always there, tending to my wounds and making sure I had all
I needed to heal. Right now, He is
holding my hands and teaching me to walk again. He has shown me all I have been
searching for, and step by step he is bringing me closer to it. I am not afraid
anymore. All the mountains that were before me now seem so small. I am happy and can smile again. He has
promised to take me to that place where I can say with love in my heart “Forever
and always”. - Sunday, June 19, 2011
If you can identify with the
experience that was described in this excerpt then maybe it is time to stop and
think. You may choose not do exactly as I did (you need a relationship with God
to do that), but you need to stop pouring water into a leaking container – it
is useless. Stop and re-evaluate. Step aside and observe. Conduct a diagnostic
process to identify the leakage(s) and decide if the leakages can be patched or
if you just need to get another container! Either ways, stop doing the same
thing and expecting a different result – that’s just insane. Don’t be too proud
to admit that you were wrong; it is never too late to start afresh.
When you are on the right path, you don’t have
to wait till you get to your destination to be fulfilled. Your fulfillment
begins as soon as you start the journey – and it builds as you progress. No
matter how far you have travelled down a wrong path, the joy, peace and
fulfillment that comes with starting afresh is much better than that miserable
life you are living right now. The choice is yours.
I hope I made some sense to
someone out there, I would love to read your comments too.
Ciao!
