Starting Afresh

Hi Guys,

It turned out to be a different Sunday afternoon. I decided to use the free time constructively and avoid spending time on things that are not ‘beneficial’. So rather than sleep and watch movies all day, I introduced some more important things like praying and making this entry. Although I still observed my siesta and also did see a movie, I was less than generous with the time I spend doing them.

Going through some of the previous entries from my personal journal, my memory was refreshed on some of my experiences, how far I had come and how far I still need to go. I also thought sharing some of these entries might be what somebody out there needs by way of advice, caution or encouragement. So, in this write-up (and maybe a couple more) I will review an entry from my personal journal and I hope that someone out there will get something valuable from it. Here we go!

I lost my peace and I lost my strength. I was drained and couldn’t struggle anymore. I knew I was on a wrong track and could not find my way back. Everything just went wrong. I couldn’t pray and I felt so alone. So I cried out. That was the only thing I could do. I told God I needed Him to come and save me. I searched for him and sought his face. I told him I could not do this on my own and I desperately needed Him. I told him I wanted to feel His arms around me and to hear Him speak to me again. He responded to me and told me ‘do nothing, just react’. Well, I did listen and did what He asked me to do. I took it one step at a time and held on to patience. Things began to unfold; He began to loosen me from the entanglements. I got cut in the process and I bled a little, but He was always there, tending to my wounds and making sure I had all I needed to heal.  Right now, He is holding my hands and teaching me to walk again. He has shown me all I have been searching for, and step by step he is bringing me closer to it. I am not afraid anymore. All the mountains that were before me now seem so small.  I am happy and can smile again. He has promised to take me to that place where I can say with love in my heart “Forever and always”.   -              Sunday, June 19, 2011

If you can identify with the experience that was described in this excerpt then maybe it is time to stop and think. You may choose not do exactly as I did (you need a relationship with God to do that), but you need to stop pouring water into a leaking container – it is useless. Stop and re-evaluate. Step aside and observe. Conduct a diagnostic process to identify the leakage(s) and decide if the leakages can be patched or if you just need to get another container! Either ways, stop doing the same thing and expecting a different result – that’s just insane. Don’t be too proud to admit that you were wrong; it is never too late to start afresh.

 When you are on the right path, you don’t have to wait till you get to your destination to be fulfilled. Your fulfillment begins as soon as you start the journey – and it builds as you progress. No matter how far you have travelled down a wrong path, the joy, peace and fulfillment that comes with starting afresh is much better than that miserable life you are living right now. The choice is yours.

I hope I made some sense to someone out there, I would love to read your comments too.

Ciao!